Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Romantic Ruminations

Have you ever had a thought, or better yet, had the thought of a person continously looping in your brain? Similar to meditation, every time you think of that person or thing it produces a feeling on the inside of you. That's pretty much what meditation is, running a thought over and over again in your brain until it produces a feeling-positive or negative. The Bible even juxtaposes negative meditation (worrying) with positive meditation.

Philipians 4: 6&8 (Amplified version)

6) Do not fret or have any anxiety about anything......
8) ......whatever is true, whatever is worthy of reverence and is honorable and seemly, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely and lovable, whatever is k ind and winsome and gracious, if there is any virtue and excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think on and weigh and take account of these things [fix your minds on them].

For some reason love and romantic relationships keep looping through my brain. Recently my Ipod seems to be shuffling through songs that keep me thinking about Eros. Maybe that is because 1/4 of the songs on my Ipod are R&B/Neo-Soul, or maybe because i've been shuffling past the rest, lol ( I've succomb to using texting terms).

Jill Scott, Eric Roberson, Maxwell, Bilial, Raheem Davaughn, Floetry, Anthony Hamilton, & Dwele have all been keeping me company and providing a lively musical score to this romance I have building in my head and she is the face. But the reality is she more than 6,000 miles away and we know very little about each other which makes it hard to gauge the genuiness of my emotions. Plus I feel way more carefree than I do careful and I'm not entirely sure if that's a good thing.

What I do know is that Proverbs 4:23 keeps reminding me to have discretion in these matters. I recognized that I've allowed these abberant thoughts to keep me company in this far away land, but I must not lose sight of truth.

Beyond the theological discourse and the analytical posturing, maybe my real concern is that these romantic ruminations are but one example of my shifting priorities. It looks as if I have begun replacing my first love with things that are more human and more immediate. Writing a blog doesn't solve anything, but at least it cleared my mind for the moment. I know I have to set my face like flint to seek after the Father.

1 comment:

Tyler Heald said...

This is excellent man. Get your thoughts out, trap them here in the interwebs, instead of having them float through your brain all day. I really want to be healthy like this, this journaling thing is such a great idea. Not only does it clear your mind, but it shows you measurable progress (or lack thereof) that you can encourage and exhort yourself in.

I love that you've got the scripture in your mind as well, bringing a dichotomy against things that might be trying to distract you and steal your devotion away. I really admire that, Elliott.