Monday, November 29, 2010
Friday, June 11, 2010
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Edited by Sharrise Evans
I can hear voices from The Color Purple singing that old tune, "God is trying to tell you something, right now."
It's funny when God speaks to me it seems like the world around me echoes it. Sometimes these moments are very profound, and at other times they are graceful nudges to guide us along our path.
The summer of 2008 was one of those unique experiences. I was at a point where I was being stretched in every direction; Working two jobs and taking two summer social classes. My life was a mix between working on campus, working at a credit union and dissecting social theory. I realized that I was out of balance and something in my heart told me to quit my 30 hr credit union gig and just focus on school. That sounded crazy I thought, and so did everyone I asked for input. I did technically need the money, since I was gonna be saving up to intern in DC. Plus, the credit union paid well. I knew my on campus job was only going to cover my basic necessities, so, rather than do anything rash, I waited.
After a week or so of contemplation, I needed an answer. I was tired, fatigued and mentally drained the morning that I asked God to give me a clear sign about my job. I got 2 signs. The first was when I went to the break room to grab something to eat, and I fainted. That has never happened to me in my life. Medically explainable, but still apart of my answer. I should have known then, but I wasn't sure so when I went for my lunch break I again sought divine counsel. There, inside Walmart on a bench, I prayed and then rested my head in my hands.
While my head was still down a man came up to me. I heard him say, "excuse me," and I looked up. He was wearing a blue Wal-Mart apron and from the cart behind him, he appeared to work as a stocker. I remember his gentle presence and his words. He said, "I am sorry I don't mean to bother you and I know this might seem strange but I was over there and God spoke to me and told me to give this to you."
He raise his closed hand to me, I hesitated for a moment. He urged ",please take it." With unbroken focus I took it. I realized immediately that it was money. But I didn't look at it right away, I just told him "thank you for being obedient to God." Within a few short moments, he was gone. I never saw him before, and I never saw him again. I close my eyes and asked what this was all about. Man, I am dense sometimes! When I opened my eyes and my hand, I saw what I was holding. It was a crumbled up $100 bill. That shook me. Not the amount but the symbolism of it all. I interpreted it as, "Quit your job, I will provide for you". With that, I knew what to do and I quit my job.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
An inconvenient truth blasted
thought I would go deaf
Suffocated by reality, so I held my breath
Frustrated, so I beat my chest
Like a beast I ran till I could hear blissful lies
told my conscience forty years from now I'll apolgize.
But for now, I'll buy time
Distanced on the tallest mountain
I'll be fine.
Sublime, but fine.
Trading peace for a piece of mine.
Too much thinking,
Where's the the vine?
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Have you ever been tagged in a photo only to discover it's the ugliest picture ever taken of you? Or simply thought, why would someone who calls themself my FRIEND post a photo of me like that? Is this some kind of sick joke!
I definitely have had those responses, so I opt to have the setting where pictures tagged by other people don't show up on my newsfeed. Maybe you can relate to this problem too. For other people it's not so much being caught at the wrong angle, but being caught in photos that don't promote the kind of image they want to reflect on the World Wide Web. I have heard all types of stories where someone's business is all up in the cyber-streets based off of a tagged photo. For less tech savvy people who are new to social networking, it’s easy to get CAUGHT UP whether that is with their significant others, family, or employers.
This reminds me of a dope presentation put together by Jarrad Henderson called "Stop Snitching on Yourself!"
Regardless of the slanted angles these pictures present, they are to some degree reflective of who we are and what we look like. Perhaps, more than we are willing to admit. Maybe it’s not the lighting or fatigue, maybe pictures simply present the uglier side of ourselves. How quick we are to tell the cameraman delete that photo. I feel like this is more acceptable with women because of the standards of beauty that are placed on them. But, I too have seen a few pics where I was looking midnight- black, nappy headed or crack-head skinny. Though I will never make these my profile pics, I am slowing changing the way I look at them and how I view myself.
Over the last few months I have seen some ugly traits in my character. Everything from self-absorption to being annoyingly presumptuous. I wish I could say that in the last few months I have changed my character completely, but that is not the case. However, what has changed is my ability to look at myself, flaws and all, and still have love for myself.
Do I own up to my ugly pictures (character flaws)? Yes
Do I Want to change them? Yes!!!!!
Do I Feel bad about myself? Hell to the Nizzaw!
I see the ugly pictures along with the good ones, and choose to be happy with who I am. I have always wanted to be this perfect image, sort of boy scout-type person, but I'm not. I can be just as much of an immature jerk as the next guy, and instead of arguing that isn't true, I chose to embrace it. I am a complex and unique individual who is ever-evolving. Each ugly picture of me reveals an area that I need to grow in and I’m thankful for them. Though I must say that Lighting is key for shooting darker skinned peoples!
What ya'll think?
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Wordsmiths is a monthly collaboration between comedians, MC, singers, poets, and anyone else that has something to say.
This episode we focused on the word luck. ON LUCK features poet Marcus Aurelius Higgs, Comedian Brian Aylward and
Poet/ Strumtress Danielle Arsenault.
For more information about these artist please visit
www.10magazine.asia/1672/comedian-brian-aylward/ or http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=70594819792&v=wall